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Im blogging here now, Im not sure if its permanent or not but I find it more convienient.

The One in Between

...The Old posts and the ones to come. Sorry I just wanted to insert a "spacer post" seeing as how I haven't blogged in a long time. I need to catch up on my net life alot ... hope my pen pals haven't forgetten me =S ... If your reading this ..uhh .. mail me?

Later (I promise heh)
Neil

A Dream of Stars

Recently, my dad seems to have discovered what a great source of cheap labour his son is and has thrown me head first into the life of a hard working class man. I've been spending the mornings and afternoons of the past couple of weeks working with the workers at my dad's new house. Carrying up bags of cement, tiles and other stuff that weighs almost as much as I do to the 2nd floor, Shovelling dirt, cleaning floors and moving machines for hours. Raking and piling stones, burning weeds and generally sweating blood for a few hours a day.

What a great experience.

Really. Its hard to describe but after my days work is done I begin to see my fathers dream unfold before my eyes. We've all had it quite rough since my mother left, especially my father since his idea of building a home for his family came to a complete standstill for awhile. But now everything seems to be rolling once again and my sister, my father and I are working closer and harder to make it happen. I see this as one my greatest lessons so far, if not only because I'm slowly learning what it takes to accomplish something like this (and hopefully one day will do so myself).

Tonight I finally laid down in my drive way and stargazed for a good 40mins. I realized that that peace and inner quiet one finds when doing so is still there. I was unconciously scared I might not have found it ...maybe thats why I have been putting it off for so long.

Later

The Better Times ...I Think...

Well, the exams are over (Don't think I've seen the last of maths but I'll worry abt that when the time comes). I almost feel as If I should have prepared a blog entry in advance for this (No, i dont normally do that). Though somehow ...it doesn't really feel like summer at all. I feel a change. I don't know what I'm going to end up doing this summer. I don't know If I'm going to work yet, actually I dont know if I WANT to work yet and the decsion time for that is closing fast.
I've litarelly spent from monday to today writing different programs and desiging my first website (no link yet...Im too ashamed of it for now) thereby effectivly cutting myself off from the social world. You'd think that after a couple of months studying and exams I'd be foaming at the mouth from lack of it. But I'm not. This is all quite strange to me, I couldn't spend a weekend away from all my friends but now I'm just content with myself and my two close friends. I'm content.

I can't remember the last time I used that word for myself.

Useless Grief

Due to some lame $$% $#%^ #$%^ I had to change the commenting on the blog to registered users. Might I suggest to Blogger some form of anti-spam in the comments section or at least the ability to mass delete comments ... >=/

Left to Blog...(and) The Art of Blogging

Think I'm just going to accept these late night\early morning periods of no sleep and use them to blog more often.

Heres my take on blogs:
One of my goals is to be a better blogger. But what is a better blogger? Somone that attracts more people to his blog or has a loyal following is the first thing that jumps to my mind. Much like a better author would entail that the author is widely known. But blogging is not about writing stories. Its about expressing oneself, like poetry and music. We are all artists painting\sculpting\singing our lives out onto this digital pad. People do not view our posts because they are interested in how you walked up the stairs, turned a corridor, went straight through the hall, sat on a couch and decided stairs are annoying. They're interested in how you ex(painted)pr(scultpted)ess(sang)ed it, because expression contains meaning.

Heres my artwork, could you show me yours?

Procrastination ...It will bring you down

Ever since my maths exam my studying has dropped. I think its just the demoralization taking effect. Only last night I played a computer game with my friends online and tomorrow I have my Computer Studies exam! Sigh.
Luckily, today I discovered www.43things.com thanks to Lena and proceded to make a list of some of my goals, some are far off but rely on decisions and action I take now, others are near and others can't really be achieved until I'm dead(such as 'Live Passionately'), but serve as a reminder of how I want to live my life.

The Bdw: My black diary is still empty, staring at me with black eyes from behind my printer...

Later